Silly Queen

10:08 PM

Monday, January 31, 2005

Dear Diary,
hmm.. kinda tired, how nice it would be if i have a massage like now.. i would appreciate the person a lot a lot.. hahaha.. i still dun very get the bath and smelly part.. do guys prefers to smell like sweaty and find that it smell nice? isnt it better to have a nice shower and u could really smell better and feel fresher.. isnt that great? and i dun understand why this person must capture the smell from sherman? how can u capture a smell? so funny de.. hmm.. i hope this person is feeling better le by now though i dunno wad happen to him.. just hope he's fine. remember that u should always look on the positive side.. if it's meant to be urs, it can never run away from u. if it's not meant to be urs, no matter how u try to catch it, is also of no use.. or maybe God wan u to meet someone tat's not so nice so that u'll cherish that one more.. well, life's like tat.. dun think so much of the negative side bah.. how do one feel numb? why should one feel numb? is it like u can feel ur heart having no feelings and very quiet, very still? how do u feel tat? guys just dun talk out their frustrations.. isnt it better to let go for a while? one shouldnt keep all those negative feelings inside their heart for too long.. u need not show it to others but u can do sth to get rid of those negative feelings.. running might help.. u can even write it down somewhere.. u'll definitely feel better after doing all that.. trust me.. this someone names himself Di neng Er.. does tat means low IQ? i dunno.. this someone is not Di neng Er lor.. he's very smart de.. all i can say to this someone is 'jia you bah'.. life is not just unhappiness.. god gives u the same amt of happiness and unhappiness.. it's just how u see them.. remember tat.. u are already very fortunate le, so be grateful for that.. there's ppl hu have less.. hmm, like i'm saying a lot of 'da dao li' here huh.. but it's all just positive thinking lor.. this week is my stress week.. got job interview on tues, judging on wed and handing in of tcs job interview thngy on friday.. like so stress lor.. and there's still so many many projects to be completed.. hai.. i also must jia you jia you.. time would pass very very fast, cause after 7 weeks, exams would be over le.. can u imagine time passing so fast? i dunno.. i dun even have much time to think, it's like just do tat kind.. hmm.. someone, do read thru wad i said.. re-read again.. dun think so much.. take care O..

good nite..
rgds...

9:39 PM

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Dear Diary,
hmm.. i just receive another mail from someone. it's kinda fun to communicate this way.. well, does that means tat he can eat wadever that's provided to him? i think so too.. i guess he's a person hu's easily satisfied.. like he dun need a lot of things.. i think if he has someone hu loves him a lot, he'll be satisfied.. anyway, he apologise for not replying my sms, it's ok de, i thought he was in M'sia for the past few days. hope his phone is okie liao. but i still dun get the bathing part and the smelling part after bathing.. like a bit funny huh..
oh yes, i also wan to apologise for not going to the NTU seminar today, i wasnt really in the mood to go and i feel tat it's like a little useless for me to go and see wad they haf to offer cos i dun think i'll go straight to U after i graduate.. financially i cant, so i'll haf to go and work for ard 2 yrs fers b4 committing myself to study full-time again.. i'm quite looking forward to the working life.. i think i'm brought up thinking that i should haf a job no matter wad. my aunt and mom were like ' u shld be independent and get a job, that way, u would not worry abt ur other half bullying u or leaving u '.. so i'm brought up that way that i shld haf a job.. but i still wan my 'that one'.. ahaha..
yesterday, i went out wif steph and we shop ard.. bought my formal wear and a nice skirt.. i even bought a pair of earrings to go wif my skirt.. ahaha.. look out O.. den we came back to tampines to haf dinner wif sam.. we just bought some stuffs from Old Chang Kee and went to sam's house.. didnt really talk a lot abt the topic tat we actually want to share cos an unexpected guest came and he's like such a gossip but in a nice way cos we didnt see him for a long long time.. he's still so funny... my god, we laughed so much last nite lor.. we stayed there till 1115.. dunno why i was having a terrible headache last nite.. it's so nice meeting up wif the dem lor.. i cant wait to haf a chalet and get all of them to come.. we had agree to meet up during the CNY on the 12th.. we'll go house-visiting and haf dinner at either one of our house.. do u wan to join? ahaha.. hmm.. dunno y, these days after my mom washed my Poohie, i can sleep very well.. i can just hug it and slp all the way till morning and dun even feel like waking up.. hahaha.. m i like talking rubbish? dunno if this someone would mind a not, receiving junk mail... if he mind, better tell me early... k? gd nite lor..

1:53 PM

Friday, January 28, 2005

Dear Diary,
i just received an email from someone hu didnt answer my qtn in the email for i dunno wad reason. instead he told me that he's going to shower and smell himself.. ????? i dun see wad secret there is for the qtn i ask... i really wonder..
hmm.. i'm at home now, didnt get to go JB today ( hai, so sad ) cos mom got toothache and she cant go wif me.. though i can still go wif my aunt but she's not the very shopping type and wont give much opinions like my mom and other aunt.. so, no curry fishhead too.. sob sob.. so i accompany mommy to the dentist and went into the room wif her.. it's always scary to visit the dentist.. they dun leave a gd impresion on me.. like they just wan to remove all ur teeth and they dun do it the gentle way.. well, this dentist was quite alright ( by the way, he's a malay a bit 'chubby'.. hahaha ) he explain to me the process while i stand and watch him take out the tooth.. he take it out like 3 times, cos the wisdom tooth got 3 'legs'.. mom was super-scared and within 25 mins, the tooth came out in 3 parts cos it broke. it's not tat expensive also. came back home wif mom n i haf to make out wad she's saying from all those 'ermmm' ... now mommy blame me for her broken tooth; i bought back the green pea nuts last wk and she maybe bite them too hard so the tooth crack.. it's not 100% my fault cos i didnt ask her to eat wah.. maybe i'm a little guilty cos after removing the tooth, she got to use her other side to chew and eat.. hai..
i'm eating a lot of apples and dragonfruits.. dunno why mommy peel them all for me.. i think i'm very sian of apples le.. if only i haf watermelon now.. ahahaha.. tat would be so so nice.. i'm so so bored at home, like no mood to do anything, just wan to read my book and nap... hai.. sian sian sian... shall stop here for now...

11:56 AM

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Dear Diary,
today is a i'm-so-tired-day. Hmm.. i slept at 0115 in the morning and woke up at 0645 to accompant mommy go brisk-walk for 2.5km.. came back and haf breakfast - a cup of tea with a not no nice pizza.. tidy up the house cos someone's coming.. (i only sweep the floor and mop it but the house looks and feels better.. ) i like having my house just cleaned.. it's a very nice feeling.. Anyway, i shower and went to sch to meet Naatasha in BICU.. we were just discussing a little on the mediv project when jian ming came and pester us go lunch with him.. i think i we didnt go with him, my arms would get red and swollen.. ahaha.. so naatasha and i went with him to short circuit and we continue our discussion.. the project seems quite easy but u'll never noe until u do the project.. so we all talk abt some stuffs that i cant remember le.. wait for steph to come and pester her to go shopping with me cos i noe she's not going to do a lot in sch.. so we waited for jm (jian ming) and went bugis wif him.. he told us not to buy anything from Song Brothers.. we walked around the ladies department and he's quite okie wif it though i think there are no ore than 5 guys on the entire floor..
we went to eat at kfc.. i must say he's quite a gentleman cos he open the doors for us and help me carry my food though he got his food already.. (hmm.. am i praising him too much? ahaha)but it's very sweet.. we talk abt how he 'sees' our future partner and how we 'sees' his future partner.. he said that my partner would be a 'da nan ren' but not so 'da' in the sense that he'll give in to me.. as for steph's partner, he thinks that he would be a 'da da nan ren'.. hmm.. i think for his partner, she would be a ger girl, one who can be dependent on him.. well, i guess with a guy like him, one can really be dependent.. hmmm.. he is like another sam where we can just talk freely, talk abt anything and feels comfortable.. we ask qtns and get the answers from a guy's point of view and he ask us too, just like an exchange session.. we talk more of steph n fong, the 'gao ren' and the 'qian bian' ren.. we didnt really shop around as in buy some stuffs but thru window-shopping, u'll get to noe more abt each other.. steph and i came back to tampines central and went shopping ard too.. we talk abt fong and her.. i hope they'll get back together again someday, so steph 'jia you bah'.. i try on a few shirts , there's one that's quite nice but i feel that it's a little too expensive cos i dunno if i'll wear it like after this semester.. walk around and saw peng.. he's wif his frens shopping for shoes den guess wad, we saw fong too wif frank (i think).. it's such a coincidence.. ahahaha.. peng msg me and ask if i go for makeover cos i look different and he cant recognise me.. ahaha.. think it's the hair.. well, we didnt see each other for quite a long time so i guess things change.. came back home and it's already 9 plus.. uncle ching was here.. he's in singapore for business.. felt so tired.. it would be so nice to have a massage.. hmmm.. talk to sam and dinner on sat at 5 or 7.. it's a nice day overall.. time for bed.. gd nite..

11:39 AM

Monday, January 10, 2005

hmm.. it's the start of a week again.. feel tat times passes so fast.. i didnt get to rest this week and i think i'll only get to rest after all my tests.. hai.. i'm feeling tired.. got woke up by my aunt's phone call.. i dunno why she call tat early but it's just at 7... anyway, i continue to lie in my comfy bed till my alarm rings.. i off both alarms and went back to slp and only woke up at 10 mins to 8. Dad told me to hurry a little today.. think it's the first day of the lunar month.. so 1 more mth to CNY.. hee.. cant wait for it to come.. my week-end was spent on doing my cap and the reports.. hai.. the never-ending report.. n i dunno y those TWO still dun wan to do their work.. i really dun understand why they must wait until the last minute to do their work, only at that time, they seems to be willing to work.. they just get on my nerves.. i'm so thankful that this is the last semester and i'm going to get everything done and after that i dun haf to face THEM again... hmm.. i'm feeling a little cold.. if i dun haf to meet sup later, i'll skip both lectures and went home le.. gotta start studying for my tests le.. so see u..

1:29 PM

Thursday, January 06, 2005

hiyee.. i got a terrible flu again.. it's making me sick and all i want to do now is to go back to my comfy bed and sleep.. i really need my rest.. i only slept for 6 plus hours yesterday. hmm.. about yesterday fers, i had my lessons den at 1, steph, huifen and i went back to east view to eat and look look around. we talk in the bus abt relationship wif ppl of other races. hmm.. seems like huifen haf to marry a singaporean chinese. we went back and saw Isaac and Deng wan and some other junior prefects.. think they got a meeting or something.. well, we went to get food and so miss the food there and the environment.. still can remember that the benches near the water cooler is the place we always gather before we went for flag-raising. we saw a few teachers and walk around.. then we walk to the tampines central.. we haf so much fun talking about peng.. i wonder if he sneezes yesterday cos we talk abt him.. we had so much laughter till all our stomach pain from laughing.. we shop around but huifen and i didnt get anything.. steph finally got a nice pair of shoes.. it's nice and quite cheap.. wan to buy clothes de but think the shop got sales often so i'll wait.. a lot of a little savings can bring u a lot.. came back to sch and went for my last lecture.. went home and my aunt came.. mommy fried bee-hoon. very nice, got the taste that i like wif a lot of shredded omelette. den mommy cook red bean soup cos i want to eat.. it's nice to haf a change sometimes, not just rice wif soups.. shower and rest and study for my quiz today.. mom told me to go and rebond my hair again cos my hair like not so straight le.. maybe i'll do it during the term-break.. stay up to watch tv cos it's the last episode of the hong kong show.. quite nice.. tat's why i still wan to sleep somemore and i'm not fine.. hai.. alright, i've to take care and hope i get well soon.. gotta do a lot of stuffs.. see u..